you know, its actually a good thing to have your blog to be dead,
at least well, when i update,
no one will come and see so its a good thing:)
these few days have been super fustrated,
i just dun have the mood to do anything,
i just wanna cry,
but nothing comes out,
and charlene is right,
crying doesnt help in anything, but the only thing i can do now is cry.....
yangqiong is overseas and i have no one to talk to....
i really need someone to listen to me....
i feel stuffed inside of me,
im putting up masks over my face in front of everyone....
i really hate this feeling...
when will it ever stops?

well, its been quite a while since i have blogged.
this period is really a horrible for me
lots of things had happened during this period....
argh....
why cant they just talk to each other?
why are the 2 of them so stubborn?
one thinks its the other's fault while the other thinks otherwise -.-
when i saw the sadness in her eyes, it reminds me of the past,
something of which i did which makes me regretted for life....
i just dun wan such things to happen on the few of you and
you will regret for your life...
its just some stupid misunderstanding between the few of you,
just talk uh!
i dunno who to side with,
but all i know its that if you settle it now,
in the future you will see this incident as a joke,
if not,
it will become one of your biggest regret...
its coming to the end of year....
only like,
few months tgt as a class?
not even few months i think,
its not worth to spend this precious time left on such things right?
hais,
i really dunno what to do with you all...
i just dunwanna see history repeating on the 2 of you.....
ohmy....
no mood to do anything..
think go do history.....
bye.....

hais,
mid year is still halfway through,
think screwed all my test,
but dun really care,
gave up long long time ago le.
today,
i had the weirdest dream i ever had,
super impossible one,
yet,
it is quite funny:)
hai,
still got lit and science and homec.
but homec i think i lost my txtbk -.-
sian-.-
wanna sms ppl leh,
LINXINZI,
faster take back ur phone leh,
at least i can disurb you:)
the others i disturb till sian le:)
now its your turn!
MUAHAHAHHAHA
hope i wont burst my bill,
like always....
nvm,
now feel like watching tv....
hmmmmmmm....
byebye:)

today today today,
morning quite ok luh,
only something happened then... ya
then recess,
LINXINZI for once clipped up her hair!!!
yay! for once she listens to me:D
ICT,
went to sleep~
cuz class very chaotic and i cant be bothered much.
MATHS,
okok luh.
didnt kena scolded~
then MTL,
for once,
i smsed throughout the lesson:)
thanks ******!
must keep it a secret then fun:)
then bus-ed home with charlenechelsinicolefredaocydawnsophia
they all bully sophia sia!
so noisy,
had to go mac myself cuz nicole dunwanna go with meD:
i feel so sad,
and charlene too:(
then on the way,
shaw bin sent me and charlene a "ahems: msg-.-
so... DIAO
really enjoyed my self today overall:)
shall do that everyday!:D
should start studying
and i realised,
i think my younger sis likes someone,
cuz she wanna have PRIVATE chat with my mum
LOL
i was laughing like mad siol!!!!!
liwen,
gogogogo study!!!

IFEELGREAT
today really felt relaxed:)
thx to charlenehuitingjinningyanxuan,
for cheering me up and making me laugh just now:D
bball rocks man!
so shiok~
first funny thing:
charlene shot the ball through under my open de BIG BIG legs-.-
second funny thing:
charlene showed jinning the "scary" look then
jinning said: mama~
HAHAHA
third funny thing:
SOMEONE wrote smth on facebook and huiting read it out
then yanxuan sort of blushed~~~
FOURTH AND THE STUPIDEST THING:
jinning took my house keys home-.-
and i realised damn late luh!
then ran afther her with charlene:)
lastly, this is delicated to CHARLENE OH~~
dear charlene,
you are the BEST!
cheat me for several months har,
asked u dunwan tell har,
then i said its that person then u say its not har,
then today tell me its that person har,
wanna drive me up the wall is it?
so i tell u,
u are the BEST among the BEST man!!!!
lucky u tell me now,
otherwise,
i dunno what other crazy stuff i will do man~~~
ok,
thats the end.
byebye~~~

hais,
im super sad now....
dunno why.... mayb cuz tmr outing cancelled then more sad luh
thought got smth to cheer me up,
in the end,
cancelled-.-
i wanna cry!!!!
can someone help me???
D:
tmr is another terrible day
hope my stomach can get more pain then monday no nid go school.
i wanna sleep
i rather sleep then to be awaken,
then no nid think bout all this nonsense.
can someone erase my memory?
i rather to be dumb than to be in such situationD:
i....i.....
hate tmr
hate tmr tmr
hate everything.
somebody,
KILL ME

hihihihihihihihihihihi
being random here by posting:)
know why? cuz im using my NEW com!!!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
my sis very noisy sia
nvm....
hmm, lets update myself
27 march,
not exactly the best day nor is it the worst day.
50-50
1 april,
reminder to myself: April fool's day SUCKS
5 april,
hated myself for forgetting my mom birthday..........
today,
not so much a fun day.
cuz claire ps meD:
heng i homec and chinese got jolyn,
otherwise......
see my black face.
tmr,
dunno yet:)
stomachaching now,
dunno tmr got go school anot-.-
wanna die!!!
u know,
right now inside me,
i feel confused.
why leh?
i also dunnno.
suddenly,
i dun feel like talking much,
i dun like listening to some stuff.
just feel like having some alone time
i dun feel like going to school.
i dun feel like doing anything.
i only feel like rotting away......
maybe cuz some things happened
and its cant be undone.
for once,
i felt hurt.........

today is the first day of the holidays, AKA, the first day of extra CIP
not bad,
slept when im supposed to be on duty :P
too tired lah, cant help it.
then the MCs kept waking me up :O
sian.....
but overall,
quite nice cuz they played all the
games which is..... i dun know how to say:)
TGC:
best sia!
soooo nice,
ESP the dunking machine,
we spent $87 for 131 balls to
hit Darren!!!
:D
he dunked for round 12 times?
so funny sia!
HAHAHAHHAHAHA
then afterwhich,
i 'sort of' went missing,
which is not,
i just went round walking~
enjoying the scenery~
anyway,
today i spent round 10 plus i think,
cuz the pens and food and stuff
been stuffing myself with food.
OH,
btw, does anyone know how to do the maths?
super pissed off by it!
nvm,
chill,
chill.....
i wanna go back to sec1,
where i would never have such situations,
and i would never have such awkward smses......
hais......
when will things ever go back to normal?
i miss my smses bursting every month,
i miss the happy times,
i miss everyting...

HI PEEPS^^
i know ur miss me rite?:D
these few days quite busy ars,
with mass cip and stuff.
finally its over:)
tmr got cca till dunno what time,
forgot,
but nvm.
and 10 and 27 march shall be the best day of my life,
bcuz 10 march is SLI(Student Leader Investiture)!!!!
and 27 march is my *ahems*
:D
i just realised,
i haven wished brina happy birthday :P
this is the whole story:
i wanted to be the first one to wish her happy birthday,
but then NaCl called her first before me,
so i told her i wont wish her happy birthday.
then i planned that
i and 7 march 11 plus wish her,
so that i can be the last one to wish her happy birthday on the actual day,
BUT......
i fell asleep:P
cuz if i cant be the first, i shall be the last mah,
then easier to rmb me:)
so clever rite me:)
actually i decided to do that to everyone,
except for some ppl who i really wanted to be the first one to say happy birthday to:)
today JOSEPHINEKOH pretended sick worh,
spent 25 $$ on mc worh,
wasted my WHOLE afternoon worh,
then still got face come ask me for present-.-
but quite fun luh,
esp the bball part,
i was laughing like shyt seh,
then hor,
i unlucky luh,
kena hit by the ball in the head,
then i was dizzy for awhile,
then fine liaos
hais.......
i miss the old days,
i miss the days when we do not have to think so much bout stuff...
i miss my cheerfulness...
i miss sec 1 life...
how i wished i can go back in time.........

hahas,
back to posting
as requested by dear charlene
who spammed my cbox-.-
nvm
lets see,
this few days quite ok luh
only that lesser angbao taken,
but i get to play wii whole day siol,
for 2 days!!!!
so fun!
till my hand pain
hais,
sian
cuz nth for me to do now
then tmr nid go sch early
cuz of some ppl luh,
but nvm,
practice me to wake up once hear the alarm:)
these few days got new songs!
one would be
加油 by JJ lin
who stole my birthday-.-
which reminds me of how freda rmbs my birthday -.-
hasi,
i miss primary sch,
and yan xuan birthday is coming up!
wanna give her a surprise,
but what?
hmmmm,
me dunnno :P
kk
me gtg liaos
byebye

hello^^
long long long long long time no posted
and u know smth,
i LUV singlish and broken english
me haven finish hmk
die die die
today physics test,
GG
hahas
ytd emo-ed
till i cried
why?

DUN TELL U
^^
anyway,
i wanna find new friends to hang out with,
but not forgetting my DEAR charlene and gina^^
this below part,
is delicated to
charlene
gina
chelsi
and
whoever tried to cheer me up:
i thank your for trying to cheer me up,
certain point of time
ur did make me laugh,
but still,
i cant hyper up,
till i cried ytd,
which makes me feel better
then today didtn really emo,
but dunno if tmr will,
lets hope not
but emoing de feeling is soo nice
just enjoyed it
today,
didtn wanna talk bout it cuz nth to elaborat on,
except that my phone went missing,
into someone bag which is pink -.-
today me and quok juin
did smth bad
hahas
the FUN part seh!!!
i think i better stop,
otherwise i no need do hmk
byebye^^

hey all!
im back^^
today was quite a busy day!
morning,
went library with charlene,
then bought her lunch then "escort" her home^^
then afternoon,
met brina^^
we went library again-.-
arcade-ed a while....
actually wanna post the chio-est pic i think brina will ever have.
but i lazy upload then i cant find my cable-.-
so maybe next time^^
then she treated me twister fries!
sms-ed huimin using brina de phone.
i very clever rite??
^^
think i should brush up my bluffing skills.
i cant bluff ppl at times:(
tmr meeting brina again!
but for some purpose i cant say,
but i can tell you,
my pocket is gonna burn a HUGE HUGE hole after tmr:(:(
school starting!
ohyeah,
cant wait for it!
hais,
sometimes i wish i can be as innocent as before...
for those who dunno,
before i became sec 1,
i was very innocent,
serious,
im not lying.
i only had my phone last year.
i never knew a single vulgarities.
i never get into any of my friends de complicated world,
rarely have "xin2 shi4"
i was always alone,
well,
not always but most of the times.
i never go out that often before.
my life was quite simple that time.....
but now,
phone bill bursting every month due to SOME people,
knew lots of vulgarities,
was always pulled into complicated worlds,
but out of all these things,
only one thing is good,
and that is im not alone anymore:)
and the one that is the worse is that
everyday,
i wont be happy,
somehow,
certain part of the day,
i will be sad,
not exactly sad,
but,
like,
problems stuffing inside of me.....
and i cant say out:(
hais,
why must people change?
why cant we stay just the way we were?
if people change for the better,
its ok to me,
but instead,
they change for the worse.
hais,
hais,
starting to feel troubled again......
how am i going to continue my life
with facing my troubled problems everyday??
hais,
i just dunno what to say..............

hey yo!!
hahas,
now what time is it?
NEW YEAR TIME!!!!
ahahas
today quite tiring luh.
first,
slept at 3 plus the day before so today cant wake up....
then went bbt shop with gina charlene and claire^^
but then the bbt shop closed-.--.--.-
DIAOS
then went round the neighbourhood to look for bbt shop,
then found,
but the boss not there.
in the end we go to sweet talk...
then charlene claire and i cabbed to tam
then i disappeared with claire de i touch along with charlene,
then finally,
our MAIN CHARACTER appeared!!!
MS KOH JINNING/MS JOSEPHINE KOH
came^^
then went return itouch first then lunch-ed
0.0
then went arcade!!!!!
lols,
the two of them never win in dancing or the drumming
HAHAS
and SOMEONE was a dancer worh!!!!
then went home do hmk0.0
stupid huimin,
told me she saw me-.-
then i told the two of them,
then when we eating lunch rite,
they suddenly will say
"eh, HUIMIN BEHIND LEH!!!"
then i turned,
i only saw air -.-
they very bad seh.
then after finished hmk,
we went for dinner^^
then went home,
hmk-ed a while then
COUNTDOWN!!
lols,
not so fun luh,
cuz no ppl for me to disturb-.-
well,well,well
so fast one year has passed,
and soon,
im gonna be sec2 and soon
im gonna be sec3
lols,
hahas
hais,
now i wanna go watch tv liaos^^
byebye and have a
VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
im very disapointed in you,
ppl give you advice,
but you never listen to it.
hais,
i never wanted to do this,
but you forced me to.........
you've changed
you were never such a person...........
sorry......

heyhey!
im back,
after a long period of time,
cuz was chionging hmk
and lazy type:P
well,
i think this is the longest post i will ever type.
kk,
first,
this is for.....
CHARLENEOHJIAYUN PARTNERRRR!
see,
i use ur fav colour:D
anyway,
thanks for being there when i needed u:)
i know that i can always count on u!
u will always be my best partnerrrr!!!
now,
BRINATANSHIMIN,AKA,RANDOMBLURSOTONG
:D
everytime when i talked to u,
i never feel bored,
cuz u will forever say random stuff to me de,
hahas,
thanks!!
ohya,
and u will never win me in arguing!!!
hahas:)
now,
GINAWIDJAYADEARRRRR!
heyhey!
u know,
everytime when i see u,
ur chubby face and ur movements
will make me laugh:)
hahas
thanks for cheering mi up,
and im glad to have a friend like u:)
left 3 more!
CLAIRELEESHIHUI AHMAAAAA!
hahas,
i think u are the weird one in this,
cuz everytime u will just hit my head for no reason:(
but,
i like that!
hahas
and we always gang up to bully brina!!
hehes
thanks!!!!
last 2!!!
CHELIRISH,AKA,DRAMAQUEEN!!
u are the most dramatic person i ever seen!
and that,
most of the times cheer me up^^
i enjoy going out with u,
but i hope that u will learn proper chinese
instead of u-know-what!
hahas.
thank you!
now, for the longest of all.......
HUIMINMUMMIE!!!!!!
hey,
im sorry for what happened ytd,
but i just cant help to emo...
i didnt mean to upset u,
....
aiya,
i just dunnoo what else to say,
i just wanna tell u,
u are the one who been with me whether i was feeling up or down
u understand me the most if im not wrong,
u know when i was emo-ing or not,
it is a real pleasure hanging out with u,
going out with u helps me to keep my mind fills with happy thoughts,
only for the part of emoing.....
i seriously didnt mean to emo,
i guess its bcuz of the holidays,
during holidays when i go out,
i tend to get emo easily,
but i promised u
i will not ever emo again in front of u
i will try my best to not emo,
cuz i really dunwan see what happened ytd to
happen again.
do u rmb our friendship ring?
there are 6 stars inside te ring,
which represents all of u
one of the side chipped off ytd,
and part of the star is also chipped off.
i treat it as a reminder to me,
that i shall never emo again,
otherwise,
what happened last night will repeat,
which i seriously dun wish it happens.....
and i shall do smth to bu chang what i've done ytd,
so i decided to host the BEST birthday party u will ever have,
even if it means for me to spend all my savings!
so next time,
dun do that again ok?
pls:)
wow,
i finally typed finished
i hoped that they will go read it!
.......
gtg liaos,
wanna finish my hkmk,
so byebye:)

hey peeps~ its now 4.15am
im sot rite?
i also know:)
dunno why stay till now
today mainly is com-ed de whole day luh
as usual,
woke up at 12 plus noon
then mac-ed
then playplayplay
only now then start work.
and i read senior de blog,
which wakes me up.
after reading it,
i feel so guilty,
so i started to do
my part:)
i sot leh
that time i cant think of anything to contribute during the meeting
but now at 4 am plus,
i thought of quite a few points which i think its quite good:)
and im proud:D
too bad shes not online now,
otherwise i would tell her all my ideas:)
i sot de.
havig a solo meeting
lols
then do hmk
still struck at the same jian bao -.-
nvm
muz jiayous mah:)
SOMEONE de birthday is coming soon worh,
and that SOMEONE hor,
very bad luh,
left me alone in S'pore,
then no one to sms with :(
faster come back luh:)
got lots of craps to tell u:)
hehes
once u come back,
prepare for my spamming bah!!!
HAHAS
which reminds me,
i nid to sms huimin now,
cuz y?
cuz i wanna disturb her luh,
she command me to sleep early,
so i PURPOSELY sleep late:D
aiya,
i better go continue with my hmk luh
otherwise i will die!
SCHOOL IS REOPENING SOON!!!::D:D:D
hahas,
byebye peeps~

hey peeps,
now its 0247.
guess wat im doin now?
chatting with derek
lols
i dun actually know him sia
all cuz of huimin,
it all started with
"why u still not sleeping?"
lols
so funny
then we chatted like crap,
lols
then chatted halfway,
weibin online,
then talked to me,
guess what he say, -.-
"its date not day lah"
cuz i put ms ang born same day as me,
then he wan me to use proper eng,
-.-
then chatted bout hmk then homec
hahas
so funny,
reminds me of claire not letting me cook,
cuz if i cook,
confirm food poisoning.
hahas
so funny,
good times, good times.
been chatting with derek
for bout 30 mins? or more
lols
nth to post seh
and i juz realised,
im SO good at detective works
hahas,
huimin,
im so not gonna tell u whats my secret XP
oh and charlene oh,
have a safe journey tmr^^
must miss worhs!!
and hor,
stop doing u-know-what to my posts -.-
there is nth in this post.
hahas very sian,
should i go sleep?
or do hmk?
think i go do luhs
^^
bye peeps,
there is nth secretive for u to see luhs-.-

Juz came back from my ah ma house^^
today i felt super lonely
so fun seh,
to tell u the truth,
today quite eventful 0.0
nobody smses me today....
zzz, cant post pics...
so sian
nvm,
did i do anything wrong that day?
put on facebook:)
why must ur like,
today went ION orchard.
ignore me
so huge and big!
all of u have activities today,
then walked walked walked,
all of u hangout with friends
then go wisma,
but what about me?
then go takashimaya.
although i go out,
lala
but inside,
then bought 2 christmas gift,
i feel so lonely i ever felt.....
the best gift i think i ever
why?
gonna receive^^
why must ur cause me so pain.....
took a pic with it,
i hate myself
but cant post so too bad lah
and bcuz of this,
dunno what else to post,
i dun think i will sleep early any day.....
but super tired leh

then come back

sleep

the go back to com-ing

hais,

so sian

got nobody to entertain me:(

nvm

think im going to watch my mulan^^

mulan 2!

hahas

gonna sleep at.... dunno,

maybe 4 plus 5?

hahas

so, byebyebyebyebyebyebye^^

hello peeps~
today was quite a tiring day seh!
went bball,
b4 that,
brina and huimin came my house,
supposed to study,
but...
who cares?
anyway,
back to the bball thingy:)
so fun seh,
i was the joker of the day,
kena hit by the ball more than 3 times seh,
one even hit my face-.-
why everytime i confirm have bull's eye one de,
everytime tio,
without fail-.-
so bad seh
then played till i super tired,
then they play drama,
super fun,
we were "slapping"
koh jin ning worh,
so fun seh,
wanna put the video,
but phone dunno what prob,
cannot put:(
hais,
try to put jin ning kena slapped de video next time bah:)
then went home,
maggie-ed,
then watched tv whole day till now, bout 3am -.-
tmr still nid to wake up early to meet shawn....
hais.....
scared i wont wake upXP
then been smsing,
aiyo,
speaking of which,
i tell u,
if anot person come tempt me with their
unlimited sms ars,
i will kill that person!!
my sms gonna burst till 1000 liaos loh,
die die die....
nvm,
think i better go sleep now,
otherwise tmr cannot wake up liaos~
byebye peeps~

hey peeps,
im back to posting,
^^
lala,
now its going to be 2!
2 more hours and it will be 4am!
lols im sot
this few days wanna stay up till 4 am,
cuz so fun,
tell u ,
later hor, i sleep at 4 rite,
i 3pm woke up,
finding brina and huimin outside my door,
waiting for me to open for them:D
that will be so fun^^
it is lame, but
nvm
today at my ah ma house,
watched amazing race the whole day^^
so shiok,
so fun!
then audi-ed
o.o
hahas,
cant believe my pri1 cousin
can actually play audi!!
i was laughin:)
jiayous!
u got talent! hahas
i sot leh,
like yan xuan:)
now hor,
my mother and sis are watching
花样少男少nu
hais,
so distracting,
cant wait till tmr de bball game with everyone:)
how fun would it be!!!
lala,
should i continue with my jianbao?
think i should,
with my air con on!!
hahas,
dunno what to type liaos,
should i go emo later 0.0
i sot liaos,
and koh jin ning/ josephine koh,
stop saying i did smth wrong-.-
i DID NOT!?!
anyway,
gtg do me hmk liaos
byebye:D

hey guys,
now its 1.24 am
and im still not asleep:)
lala
very sian seh
today juz chiong finished reading my book.
u know,
i realised
that the character in side the book
is just like me,
in keeping secret:)
thats why the title attacts me to borrow it:)
while reading it i get quite emotional,
which i dunno why,
then finally i read
finish the 400 plus pages:)
hais,
dunno what to say leh,
mon going to play bball with friends,
and finally,
with brina!!
looking forward to it,
hope i will not think of other stuffs....
then tues dunno what time meet shawn to pass me my sleeping bag,
then wed going out with huimin, brina and blah blah blah~
dunno why the wed outing,
im not looking forward to it,
hais,
whats wrong with me!?!
oh ya,
juz rmbed,
now im angry,
and yet,
im happy that im angry:)
hey thks for making me angry,
whoever-u-are,
cuz now im angry,
i can emo,
and when i can emo,
i can stone:)
stoning is fun,
to me,
dunno why, this few days
love to emo,
cuz it allows me to think properly.
i guess.....
well guys,
i think i will go emo now:)
ciao~