you know, its actually a good thing to have your blog to be dead,
at least well, when i update,
no one will come and see so its a good thing:)
these few days have been super fustrated,
i just dun have the mood to do anything,
i just wanna cry,
but nothing comes out,
and charlene is right,
crying doesnt help in anything, but the only thing i can do now is cry.....
yangqiong is overseas and i have no one to talk to....
i really need someone to listen to me....
i feel stuffed inside of me,
im putting up masks over my face in front of everyone....
i really hate this feeling...
when will it ever stops?

well, its been quite a while since i have blogged.
this period is really a horrible for me
lots of things had happened during this period....
argh....
why cant they just talk to each other?
why are the 2 of them so stubborn?
one thinks its the other's fault while the other thinks otherwise -.-
when i saw the sadness in her eyes, it reminds me of the past,
something of which i did which makes me regretted for life....
i just dun wan such things to happen on the few of you and
you will regret for your life...
its just some stupid misunderstanding between the few of you,
just talk uh!
i dunno who to side with,
but all i know its that if you settle it now,
in the future you will see this incident as a joke,
if not,
it will become one of your biggest regret...
its coming to the end of year....
only like,
few months tgt as a class?
not even few months i think,
its not worth to spend this precious time left on such things right?
hais,
i really dunno what to do with you all...
i just dunwanna see history repeating on the 2 of you.....
ohmy....
no mood to do anything..
think go do history.....
bye.....

hais,
mid year is still halfway through,
think screwed all my test,
but dun really care,
gave up long long time ago le.
today,
i had the weirdest dream i ever had,
super impossible one,
yet,
it is quite funny:)
hai,
still got lit and science and homec.
but homec i think i lost my txtbk -.-
sian-.-
wanna sms ppl leh,
LINXINZI,
faster take back ur phone leh,
at least i can disurb you:)
the others i disturb till sian le:)
now its your turn!
MUAHAHAHHAHA
hope i wont burst my bill,
like always....
nvm,
now feel like watching tv....
hmmmmmmm....
byebye:)

today today today,
morning quite ok luh,
only something happened then... ya
then recess,
LINXINZI for once clipped up her hair!!!
yay! for once she listens to me:D
ICT,
went to sleep~
cuz class very chaotic and i cant be bothered much.
MATHS,
okok luh.
didnt kena scolded~
then MTL,
for once,
i smsed throughout the lesson:)
thanks ******!
must keep it a secret then fun:)
then bus-ed home with charlenechelsinicolefredaocydawnsophia
they all bully sophia sia!
so noisy,
had to go mac myself cuz nicole dunwanna go with meD:
i feel so sad,
and charlene too:(
then on the way,
shaw bin sent me and charlene a "ahems: msg-.-
so... DIAO
really enjoyed my self today overall:)
shall do that everyday!:D
should start studying
and i realised,
i think my younger sis likes someone,
cuz she wanna have PRIVATE chat with my mum
LOL
i was laughing like mad siol!!!!!
liwen,
gogogogo study!!!

IFEELGREAT
today really felt relaxed:)
thx to charlenehuitingjinningyanxuan,
for cheering me up and making me laugh just now:D
bball rocks man!
so shiok~
first funny thing:
charlene shot the ball through under my open de BIG BIG legs-.-
second funny thing:
charlene showed jinning the "scary" look then
jinning said: mama~
HAHAHA
third funny thing:
SOMEONE wrote smth on facebook and huiting read it out
then yanxuan sort of blushed~~~
FOURTH AND THE STUPIDEST THING:
jinning took my house keys home-.-
and i realised damn late luh!
then ran afther her with charlene:)
lastly, this is delicated to CHARLENE OH~~
dear charlene,
you are the BEST!
cheat me for several months har,
asked u dunwan tell har,
then i said its that person then u say its not har,
then today tell me its that person har,
wanna drive me up the wall is it?
so i tell u,
u are the BEST among the BEST man!!!!
lucky u tell me now,
otherwise,
i dunno what other crazy stuff i will do man~~~
ok,
thats the end.
byebye~~~

hais,
im super sad now....
dunno why.... mayb cuz tmr outing cancelled then more sad luh
thought got smth to cheer me up,
in the end,
cancelled-.-
i wanna cry!!!!
can someone help me???
D:
tmr is another terrible day
hope my stomach can get more pain then monday no nid go school.
i wanna sleep
i rather sleep then to be awaken,
then no nid think bout all this nonsense.
can someone erase my memory?
i rather to be dumb than to be in such situationD:
i....i.....
hate tmr
hate tmr tmr
hate everything.
somebody,
KILL ME

hihihihihihihihihihihi
being random here by posting:)
know why? cuz im using my NEW com!!!!
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
my sis very noisy sia
nvm....
hmm, lets update myself
27 march,
not exactly the best day nor is it the worst day.
50-50
1 april,
reminder to myself: April fool's day SUCKS
5 april,
hated myself for forgetting my mom birthday..........
today,
not so much a fun day.
cuz claire ps meD:
heng i homec and chinese got jolyn,
otherwise......
see my black face.
tmr,
dunno yet:)
stomachaching now,
dunno tmr got go school anot-.-
wanna die!!!
u know,
right now inside me,
i feel confused.
why leh?
i also dunnno.
suddenly,
i dun feel like talking much,
i dun like listening to some stuff.
just feel like having some alone time
i dun feel like going to school.
i dun feel like doing anything.
i only feel like rotting away......
maybe cuz some things happened
and its cant be undone.
for once,
i felt hurt.........

today is the first day of the holidays, AKA, the first day of extra CIP
not bad,
slept when im supposed to be on duty :P
too tired lah, cant help it.
then the MCs kept waking me up :O
sian.....
but overall,
quite nice cuz they played all the
games which is..... i dun know how to say:)
TGC:
best sia!
soooo nice,
ESP the dunking machine,
we spent $87 for 131 balls to
hit Darren!!!
:D
he dunked for round 12 times?
so funny sia!
HAHAHAHHAHAHA
then afterwhich,
i 'sort of' went missing,
which is not,
i just went round walking~
enjoying the scenery~
anyway,
today i spent round 10 plus i think,
cuz the pens and food and stuff
been stuffing myself with food.
OH,
btw, does anyone know how to do the maths?
super pissed off by it!
nvm,
chill,
chill.....
i wanna go back to sec1,
where i would never have such situations,
and i would never have such awkward smses......
hais......
when will things ever go back to normal?
i miss my smses bursting every month,
i miss the happy times,
i miss everyting...

HI PEEPS^^
i know ur miss me rite?:D
these few days quite busy ars,
with mass cip and stuff.
finally its over:)
tmr got cca till dunno what time,
forgot,
but nvm.
and 10 and 27 march shall be the best day of my life,
bcuz 10 march is SLI(Student Leader Investiture)!!!!
and 27 march is my *ahems*
:D
i just realised,
i haven wished brina happy birthday :P
this is the whole story:
i wanted to be the first one to wish her happy birthday,
but then NaCl called her first before me,
so i told her i wont wish her happy birthday.
then i planned that
i and 7 march 11 plus wish her,
so that i can be the last one to wish her happy birthday on the actual day,
BUT......
i fell asleep:P
cuz if i cant be the first, i shall be the last mah,
then easier to rmb me:)
so clever rite me:)
actually i decided to do that to everyone,
except for some ppl who i really wanted to be the first one to say happy birthday to:)
today JOSEPHINEKOH pretended sick worh,
spent 25 $$ on mc worh,
wasted my WHOLE afternoon worh,
then still got face come ask me for present-.-
but quite fun luh,
esp the bball part,
i was laughing like shyt seh,
then hor,
i unlucky luh,
kena hit by the ball in the head,
then i was dizzy for awhile,
then fine liaos
hais.......
i miss the old days,
i miss the days when we do not have to think so much bout stuff...
i miss my cheerfulness...
i miss sec 1 life...
how i wished i can go back in time.........

hahas,
back to posting
as requested by dear charlene
who spammed my cbox-.-
nvm
lets see,
this few days quite ok luh
only that lesser angbao taken,
but i get to play wii whole day siol,
for 2 days!!!!
so fun!
till my hand pain
hais,
sian
cuz nth for me to do now
then tmr nid go sch early
cuz of some ppl luh,
but nvm,
practice me to wake up once hear the alarm:)
these few days got new songs!
one would be
加油 by JJ lin
who stole my birthday-.-
which reminds me of how freda rmbs my birthday -.-
hasi,
i miss primary sch,
and yan xuan birthday is coming up!
wanna give her a surprise,
but what?
hmmmm,
me dunnno :P
kk
me gtg liaos
byebye

hello^^
long long long long long time no posted
and u know smth,
i LUV singlish and broken english
me haven finish hmk
die die die
today physics test,
GG
hahas
ytd emo-ed
till i cried
why?

DUN TELL U
^^
anyway,
i wanna find new friends to hang out with,
but not forgetting my DEAR charlene and gina^^
this below part,
is delicated to
charlene
gina
chelsi
and
whoever tried to cheer me up:
i thank your for trying to cheer me up,
certain point of time
ur did make me laugh,
but still,
i cant hyper up,
till i cried ytd,
which makes me feel better
then today didtn really emo,
but dunno if tmr will,
lets hope not
but emoing de feeling is soo nice
just enjoyed it
today,
didtn wanna talk bout it cuz nth to elaborat on,
except that my phone went missing,
into someone bag which is pink -.-
today me and quok juin
did smth bad
hahas
the FUN part seh!!!
i think i better stop,
otherwise i no need do hmk
byebye^^

hey all!
im back^^
today was quite a busy day!
morning,
went library with charlene,
then bought her lunch then "escort" her home^^
then afternoon,
met brina^^
we went library again-.-
arcade-ed a while....
actually wanna post the chio-est pic i think brina will ever have.
but i lazy upload then i cant find my cable-.-
so maybe next time^^
then she treated me twister fries!
sms-ed huimin using brina de phone.
i very clever rite??
^^
think i should brush up my bluffing skills.
i cant bluff ppl at times:(
tmr meeting brina again!
but for some purpose i cant say,
but i can tell you,
my pocket is gonna burn a HUGE HUGE hole after tmr:(:(
school starting!
ohyeah,
cant wait for it!
hais,
sometimes i wish i can be as innocent as before...
for those who dunno,
before i became sec 1,
i was very innocent,
serious,
im not lying.
i only had my phone last year.
i never knew a single vulgarities.
i never get into any of my friends de complicated world,
rarely have "xin2 shi4"
i was always alone,
well,
not always but most of the times.
i never go out that often before.
my life was quite simple that time.....
but now,
phone bill bursting every month due to SOME people,
knew lots of vulgarities,
was always pulled into complicated worlds,
but out of all these things,
only one thing is good,
and that is im not alone anymore:)
and the one that is the worse is that
everyday,
i wont be happy,
somehow,
certain part of the day,
i will be sad,
not exactly sad,
but,
like,
problems stuffing inside of me.....
and i cant say out:(
hais,
why must people change?
why cant we stay just the way we were?
if people change for the better,
its ok to me,
but instead,
they change for the worse.
hais,
hais,
starting to feel troubled again......
how am i going to continue my life
with facing my troubled problems everyday??
hais,
i just dunno what to say..............